For some unknown reason, I decided to watch “The Exorcist” last night. Why, after going almost 26 years without ever watching it, would I submit myself to that movie is beyond me. Needless to say, the movie resulted in keeping me up all night with nightmares, so I’m exhausted today! I even went and slept in one of my vacant units on my lunch break! Good thing I (very randomly) had an extra pillow in my car! =)

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As I stated yesterday, I’m a big fan of country music.. especially Rascal Flatts. Well today while I was driving into work I heard their new song “Here”, and some of the lyrics really hit me.

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           And I wouldn’t change a thing,
           I’d walk right back through the rain
           Back to every broken heart
           On the day that it was breakin’

           And I’d relive all the years
           And be thankful for the tears
           I’ve cried with every stumble, step
           That led to you and got me here
           Right here, oh, baby           

           It’s amazin’, what I let my heart go through                                                                      
           To get me where it got me
           In this moment here with you

           And it passed me by
          God knows how many times
          I was so caught up in holdin’
          What I never thought I’d find

          I know now
          There’s a million roads I had to take
          To get me in your arms this way

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Now, obviously I haven’t found that love yet, but these lyrics really got me thinking about how badly I’m ready to find it. By no means do I feel that I’m old, but the fact that I’ll be 26 in just a few months and am still 100% completely single doesn’t always sit so well with me. And honestly, it doesn’t help that my baby brother is engaged, and my younger sister is in a committed relationship with a man that she has a son with.

And I don’t want to just find a boyfriend. I could have a boyfriend easily if that’s all I really wanted. I’m ready to find my partner. I’m established in my career, secure in who I am, and am ready to start that next chapter in my life. I’m ready for lazy Sunday’s eating pizza and watching the game cuddled up on the couch, for someone to be at home waiting and excited to hear about my great (or horrible) day at work, for someone to reach for my hand as we’re crossing the street and to guide me through rooms with his hand at the small of my back.

The small things… that’s what I want and what I’m ready for.